MIME-Version: 1.0 Content-Location: file:///C:/D9151212/lingao2.htm Content-Transfer-Encoding: quoted-printable Content-Type: text/html; charset="us-ascii" 未补上眼神的肖像</ti= tle> <!--[if gte mso 9]><xml> <o:DocumentProperties> <o:Author>henry</o:Author> <o:Template>Normal</o:Template> <o:LastAuthor>henry</o:LastAuthor> <o:Revision>1</o:Revision> <o:TotalTime>2</o:TotalTime> <o:Created>2005-07-08T04:10:00Z</o:Created> <o:LastSaved>2005-07-08T04:12:00Z</o:LastSaved> <o:Pages>1</o:Pages> <o:Words>562</o:Words> <o:Characters>3207</o:Characters> <o:Lines>26</o:Lines> <o:Paragraphs>7</o:Paragraphs> <o:CharactersWithSpaces>3762</o:CharactersWithSpaces> <o:Version>11.5606</o:Version> </o:DocumentProperties> </xml><![endif]--><!--[if gte mso 9]><xml> <w:WordDocument> <w:SpellingState>Clean</w:SpellingState> <w:GrammarState>Clean</w:GrammarState> <w:PunctuationKerning/> <w:DrawingGridVerticalSpacing>7.8 pt</w:DrawingGridVerticalSpacing> <w:DisplayHorizontalDrawingGridEvery>0</w:DisplayHorizontalDrawingGridEve= ry> <w:DisplayVerticalDrawingGridEvery>2</w:DisplayVerticalDrawingGridEvery> <w:ValidateAgainstSchemas/> <w:SaveIfXMLInvalid>false</w:SaveIfXMLInvalid> <w:IgnoreMixedContent>false</w:IgnoreMixedContent> <w:AlwaysShowPlaceholderText>false</w:AlwaysShowPlaceholderText> <w:Compatibility> <w:SpaceForUL/> <w:BalanceSingleByteDoubleByteWidth/> <w:DoNotLeaveBackslashAlone/> <w:ULTrailSpace/> <w:DoNotExpandShiftReturn/> <w:AdjustLineHeightInTable/> <w:BreakWrappedTables/> <w:SnapToGridInCell/> <w:WrapTextWithPunct/> <w:UseAsianBreakRules/> <w:UseWord2002TableStyleRules/> <w:UseFELayout/> </w:Compatibility> <w:BrowserLevel>MicrosoftInternetExplorer4</w:BrowserLevel> </w:WordDocument> </xml><![endif]--><!--[if gte mso 9]><xml> <w:LatentStyles DefLockedState=3D"false" LatentStyleCount=3D"156"> </w:LatentStyles> </xml><![endif]--> <style> <!-- /* Font Definitions */ @font-face {font-family:SimSun; 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mso-hansi-font-family:\5B8B\4F53_A;mso-bidi-font-family:\5B8B\4F53_A; mso-font-kerning:0pt;mso-ansi-language:EN-GB'><o:p> </o:p></span></p> <p class=3DMsoNormal align=3Dleft style=3D'text-align:left;text-indent:21.0= pt; mso-pagination:widow-orphan;text-autospace:none'><span style=3D'font-size:1= 2.0pt; font-family:\5B8B\4F53_A;mso-hansi-font-family:\5B8B\4F53_A;mso-bidi-font-f= amily: \5B8B\4F53_A;mso-font-kerning:0pt;mso-ansi-language:EN-GB'>我成= 了典型人物了?不是= 2290;我没有给自己上粉௚= 0;意思。说这是我的肖&= #20687;,只是一种方便罢= 102;;因为我发觉,说我= ;自己,难免牵涉到同&#= 36335;人,说同路人,难Ð= 13;拉扯到我自己。如果= 你“乡音不改”只是̶= 0;鬓毛衰”,看了我的&#= 32918;像,就会有所会心×= 43;。</span><span lang=3DEN-GB style=3D'font-size:12.0pt;mso-font-kerning:0pt;mso-ansi-langua= ge:EN-GB'><o:p></o:p></span></p> <p class=3DMsoNormal align=3Dleft style=3D'text-align:left;mso-pagination:w= idow-orphan; text-autospace:none'><span lang=3DEN-GB style=3D'font-size:12.0pt;mso-font-= kerning: 0pt;mso-ansi-language:EN-GB'><o:p> </o:p></span></p> <p class=3DMsoNormal align=3Dleft style=3D'text-align:left;mso-pagination:w= idow-orphan; 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text-autospace:none'><span lang=3DEN-GB style=3D'font-size:12.0pt;mso-font-= kerning: 0pt;mso-ansi-language:EN-GB'><o:p> </o:p></span></p> <p class=3DMsoNormal align=3Dleft style=3D'text-align:left;mso-pagination:w= idow-orphan; text-autospace:none'><span style=3D'font-size:12.0pt;font-family:\5B8B\4F53= _A; mso-hansi-font-family:\5B8B\4F53_A;mso-bidi-font-family:\5B8B\4F53_A; mso-font-kerning:0pt;mso-ansi-language:EN-GB'>3</span><span lang=3DE= N-GB style=3D'font-size:12.0pt;mso-font-kerning:0pt;mso-ansi-language:EN-GB'><o:= p></o:p></span></p> <p class=3DMsoNormal align=3Dleft style=3D'text-align:left;mso-pagination:w= idow-orphan; text-autospace:none'><span lang=3DEN-GB style=3D'font-size:12.0pt;font-fami= ly:\5B8B\4F53_A; mso-hansi-font-family:\5B8B\4F53_A;mso-bidi-font-family:\5B8B\4F53_A; mso-font-kerning:0pt;mso-ansi-language:EN-GB'><o:p> </o:p></span></p> <p class=3DMsoNormal align=3Dleft style=3D'text-align:left;text-indent:21.0= pt; mso-pagination:widow-orphan;text-autospace:none'><span style=3D'font-size:1= 2.0pt; font-family:\5B8B\4F53_A;mso-hansi-font-family:\5B8B\4F53_A;mso-bidi-font-f= amily: \5B8B\4F53_A;mso-font-kerning:0pt;mso-ansi-language:EN-GB'>还是= 细说从头。那年月,= 2235;十年代末五十年代࠶= 1;吧,会忽然跳出一个&= #33521;雄好汉,扛起大旗= 453;帝反殖,喊得震天动= ;地。我刚从母亲的子&#= 23467;爬出来,只会吮吸å= 02;嘴,轰轰烈烈的事迹= 对我全是历史。来到= 0845;十年代,父亲把我๦= 5;进华校,在光洋上小&= #23398;、中学。高中则幸$= 816;挤进德明政府华文中= ;学,校名带“政府”= 004;个字,心里暗自庆幸= ;,舒坦多了。那年月&#= 65292;人,有左右之分。ļ= 16;单地说,右,是政府= 那边的人,左,是反= 3545;党。大概因为北方ߑ= 3;国大陆给共产党用红&= #33394;颜料一染无遗,所= 197;,红色,是左的颜色= ;。又大概华文的源头&#= 22312;北方那块红艳艳的ß= 03;地,所以,华文,也= “左”起来;华校,å= 09;像极可能走出来一个= 顶麻烦的左派。而且= 220;左”除了是信仰的标= 志,还真具有渗透性= 0340;色彩,像张大千的૦= 0;墨一样,能吃掉一大&= #24352;宣纸。因此,你是= 326;校生,便染上了色彩= ;。六十年代是个大年&#= 20195;,时有大风浪,在ä= 23;轮船上履险如夷的人= 仍意识到有风浪起伏= 5292;何况芸芸一般百姓ߕ= 6;搭的是普通货船,岂&= #33021;逃过颠簸之苦?</span><span lang=3DEN-GB style=3D'font-size:12.0pt;mso-font-kerning:0pt;mso-ansi-langua= ge:EN-GB'><o:p></o:p></span></p> <p class=3DMsoNormal align=3Dleft style=3D'text-align:left;mso-pagination:w= idow-orphan; text-autospace:none'><span lang=3DEN-GB style=3D'font-size:12.0pt;mso-font-= kerning: 0pt;mso-ansi-language:EN-GB'><o:p> </o:p></span></p> <p class=3DMsoNormal align=3Dleft style=3D'text-align:left;mso-pagination:w= idow-orphan; text-autospace:none'><span style=3D'font-size:12.0pt;font-family:\5B8B\4F53= _A; mso-hansi-font-family:\5B8B\4F53_A;mso-bidi-font-family:\5B8B\4F53_A; mso-font-kerning:0pt;mso-ansi-language:EN-GB'>4</span><span lang=3DE= N-GB style=3D'font-size:12.0pt;mso-font-kerning:0pt;mso-ansi-language:EN-GB'><o:= p></o:p></span></p> <p class=3DMsoNormal align=3Dleft style=3D'text-align:left;mso-pagination:w= idow-orphan; text-autospace:none'><span lang=3DEN-GB style=3D'font-size:12.0pt;font-fami= ly:\5B8B\4F53_A; mso-hansi-font-family:\5B8B\4F53_A;mso-bidi-font-family:\5B8B\4F53_A; mso-font-kerning:0pt;mso-ansi-language:EN-GB'><o:p> </o:p></span></p> <p class=3DMsoNormal align=3Dleft style=3D'text-align:left;text-indent:21.0= pt; mso-pagination:widow-orphan;text-autospace:none'><span style=3D'font-size:1= 2.0pt; font-family:\5B8B\4F53_A;mso-hansi-font-family:\5B8B\4F53_A;mso-bidi-font-f= amily: \5B8B\4F53_A;mso-font-kerning:0pt;mso-ansi-language:EN-GB'>人有= 所谓的运,运不好,= 0154;再强也要吃亏;语ਧ= 1;则给所谓的“势”摆= 4067;了。华文,不论是ਟ= 9;治形势,还是经济走&= #21183;,或者是气势、声= 183;、权势,都颓了,败= ;了。“势”不利于华= 991;的成长,不成长,便= ;萎缩了。</span><span lang=3DEN-GB style=3D'font-size:12.0pt;mso-font-kerning:0pt;mso-ansi-langua= ge:EN-GB'><o:p></o:p></span></p> <p class=3DMsoNormal align=3Dleft style=3D'text-align:left;mso-pagination:w= idow-orphan; text-autospace:none'><span lang=3DEN-GB style=3D'font-size:12.0pt;font-fami= ly:\5B8B\4F53_A; mso-hansi-font-family:\5B8B\4F53_A;mso-bidi-font-family:\5B8B\4F53_A; mso-font-kerning:0pt;mso-ansi-language:EN-GB'><o:p> </o:p></span></p> <p class=3DMsoNormal align=3Dleft style=3D'text-align:left;text-indent:21.0= pt; mso-pagination:widow-orphan;text-autospace:none'><span style=3D'font-size:1= 2.0pt; font-family:\5B8B\4F53_A;mso-hansi-font-family:\5B8B\4F53_A;mso-bidi-font-f= amily: \5B8B\4F53_A;mso-font-kerning:0pt;mso-ansi-language:EN-GB'>我在= 华文正处于穷途末路= 0340;时刻,毅然背起书ࡍ= 3;走入中文系。吾道不&= #23396;,竟还有同行者。= 992;时兴的话,我们是不= ;识时务者,走进死巷&#= 37324;去了。</span><span lang=3DEN-GB style=3D'font-size:12.0pt;mso-font-kerning:0pt;mso-ansi-langua= ge:EN-GB'><o:p></o:p></span></p> <p class=3DMsoNormal align=3Dleft style=3D'text-align:left;mso-pagination:w= idow-orphan; text-autospace:none'><span lang=3DEN-GB style=3D'font-size:12.0pt;font-fami= ly:\5B8B\4F53_A; mso-hansi-font-family:\5B8B\4F53_A;mso-bidi-font-family:\5B8B\4F53_A; mso-font-kerning:0pt;mso-ansi-language:EN-GB'><o:p> </o:p></span></p> <p class=3DMsoNormal align=3Dleft style=3D'text-align:left;text-indent:21.0= pt; mso-pagination:widow-orphan;text-autospace:none'><span style=3D'font-size:1= 2.0pt; font-family:\5B8B\4F53_A;mso-hansi-font-family:\5B8B\4F53_A;mso-bidi-font-f= amily: \5B8B\4F53_A;mso-font-kerning:0pt;mso-ansi-language:EN-GB'>中文= 系里羊肠小胫上清清= 0919;冷依稀犹见前行者௚= 0;足迹;枯黄的草色因&= #38271;年寂寞反而有了内"= 164;的气质,热风直吹也= ;不毛躁。我独自彳亍&#= 65292;不料真的寻到古人ô= 18;容的柳暗花明又一村= 。那村,是个文学遗= 6857;,长得全是植物。੾= 2;森的古木,千年了,&= #32780;神,还是壮年的饱= 385;。花,穿梭于叶叶之= ;间争艳;叶,偏支起&#= 20102;众花之冠,招摇。ō= 37;到桥头,转进这么一= 个村,我尚犹豫什么= 1602;?我本爱丘山;大೽= 8;然的眉目之间总荡漾&= #30528;十八姑娘的情意,= 483;人爱惜。这么一个村= ;,是我的文化故乡了&#= 12290;春秋诸子一定曾在Ű= 25;里滔滔雄辩;魏晋那= 些狂狷之士不会错过= 2312;此饮酒放歌讨论玄ण= 8;;陶潜说不准是神游&= #33267;此才有桃花源的奇= 819;;唐宋的骚客古文家= ;都纷至沓来,站在山&#= 30707;峭壁朗读自己的文ĺ= 56;;后来,汤显祖、曹= 雪芹也来了,他写剧= 6412;,他写小说,在红ઌ= 4;上“疑义相与析”,= 5104;了忘年之交。造访๢= 5;么一个文学遗迹,足&= #30691;!</span><span lang=3DEN-GB style=3D'font-size:12.0pt;mso-font-kerning:0pt;mso-ansi-langua= ge:EN-GB'><o:p></o:p></span></p> <p class=3DMsoNormal align=3Dleft style=3D'text-align:left;mso-pagination:w= idow-orphan; text-autospace:none'><span lang=3DEN-GB style=3D'font-size:12.0pt;mso-font-= kerning: 0pt;mso-ansi-language:EN-GB'><o:p> </o:p></span></p> <p class=3DMsoNormal align=3Dleft style=3D'text-align:left;mso-pagination:w= idow-orphan; text-autospace:none'><span style=3D'font-size:12.0pt;font-family:\5B8B\4F53= _A; mso-hansi-font-family:\5B8B\4F53_A;mso-bidi-font-family:\5B8B\4F53_A; mso-font-kerning:0pt;mso-ansi-language:EN-GB'>5</span><span lang=3DE= N-GB style=3D'font-size:12.0pt;mso-font-kerning:0pt;mso-ansi-language:EN-GB'><o:= p></o:p></span></p> <p class=3DMsoNormal align=3Dleft style=3D'text-align:left;mso-pagination:w= idow-orphan; text-autospace:none'><span lang=3DEN-GB style=3D'font-size:12.0pt;mso-font-= kerning: 0pt;mso-ansi-language:EN-GB'><o:p> </o:p></span></p> <p class=3DMsoNormal align=3Dleft style=3D'text-align:left;text-indent:21.0= pt; mso-pagination:widow-orphan;text-autospace:none'><span style=3D'font-size:1= 2.0pt; font-family:\5B8B\4F53_A;mso-hansi-font-family:\5B8B\4F53_A;mso-bidi-font-f= amily: \5B8B\4F53_A;mso-font-kerning:0pt;mso-ansi-language:EN-GB'>回到= 自己的国门,虽是个= 3258;由人,继续读我的ߗ= 0;,乐国人之所不乐,&= #24551;国人之所不忧,但= 159;,我也发觉,像我们= ;这样的人,是派不上&#= 29992;场的家什,若丢了ʌ= 92;老一辈会唠唠叨叨,= 说不懂得爱惜,只好= 5601;置起来;我也只好৚= 6;我的心搁置起来。现&= #22312;的家宅变小了,布 = 622;得倒十分舒适、讲究= ;,只少了书房。我家&#= 26377;个书房,我的心就Ā= 01;置在架子上乱七八糟= 的书刊里,偶尔安慰= 0182;:“有这么多古今的= ;学者、作家给你作伴&#= 65292;你不会寂寞吧。”</span= ><span lang=3DEN-GB style=3D'font-size:12.0pt;mso-font-kerning:0pt;mso-ansi-langua= ge:EN-GB'><o:p></o:p></span></p> <p class=3DMsoNormal align=3Dleft style=3D'text-align:left;mso-pagination:w= idow-orphan; text-autospace:none'><span lang=3DEN-GB style=3D'font-size:12.0pt;font-fami= ly:\5B8B\4F53_A; mso-hansi-font-family:\5B8B\4F53_A;mso-bidi-font-family:\5B8B\4F53_A; mso-font-kerning:0pt;mso-ansi-language:EN-GB'><o:p> </o:p></span></p> <p class=3DMsoNormal align=3Dleft style=3D'text-align:left;text-indent:21.0= pt; mso-pagination:widow-orphan;text-autospace:none'><span style=3D'font-size:1= 2.0pt; font-family:\5B8B\4F53_A;mso-hansi-font-family:\5B8B\4F53_A;mso-bidi-font-f= amily: \5B8B\4F53_A;mso-font-kerning:0pt;mso-ansi-language:EN-GB'>寂寞= 是什么滋味呢?这滋= 1619;不容易与人分享。ৎ= 5;很难说,它像椰子水&= #65292;或者像海南鸡饭。= 110;者像佛跳墙、潮州蒸= ;鱼、清炒七色素菜、&#= 36824;是茅台酒;有时候ʌ= 92;它只是像咽一口气那= 样把嘴巴里的唾液吞= 9979;去罢了。寂寞不好෾= 8;清楚,处境我倒是可&= #20197;打个比喻:弃狗。= 105;写过一篇散文,题目= ;是《心里有一座山》&#= 65292;文章里便曾提到弃ĥ= 99;。狗,在华族文化的= 观念里似乎不是什么= 2909;东西;我以狗设譬ᦁ= 2;是从主人的角度来说&= #30340;。弃狗不同于野狗A= 292;正如家猪不同于野猪= ;。野狗四处闯荡,它&#= 20204;的世界没有边疆,Ò= 40;哪里就是哪里,不必= 回头顾盼,哪里值得= 3427;流连它便多待几天Ӎ= 0;弃狗原有个家,主人&= #30524;里没有它的存在,= 427;有被“弃”的感觉,&= #24515;情沉重,难免在夜%= 324;悲从中来,呜呜而号= ;;直到它摆脱了所谓&#= 20027;流意识的困惑,心ä= 36;笼罩着的弃狗阴影才= 消失了。</span><span lang=3DEN-GB style=3D'font-size:12.0pt;mso-font-kerning:0pt;mso-ansi-langua= ge:EN-GB'><o:p></o:p></span></p> <p class=3DMsoNormal align=3Dleft style=3D'text-align:left;mso-pagination:w= idow-orphan; text-autospace:none'><span lang=3DEN-GB style=3D'font-size:12.0pt;mso-font-= kerning: 0pt;mso-ansi-language:EN-GB'><o:p> </o:p></span></p> <p class=3DMsoNormal align=3Dleft style=3D'text-align:left;mso-pagination:w= idow-orphan; text-autospace:none'><span style=3D'font-size:12.0pt;font-family:\5B8B\4F53= _A; mso-hansi-font-family:\5B8B\4F53_A;mso-bidi-font-family:\5B8B\4F53_A; mso-font-kerning:0pt;mso-ansi-language:EN-GB'>6</span><span lang=3DE= N-GB style=3D'font-size:12.0pt;mso-font-kerning:0pt;mso-ansi-language:EN-GB'><o:= p></o:p></span></p> <p class=3DMsoNormal align=3Dleft style=3D'text-align:left;mso-pagination:w= idow-orphan; text-autospace:none'><span lang=3DEN-GB style=3D'font-size:12.0pt;font-fami= ly:\5B8B\4F53_A; mso-hansi-font-family:\5B8B\4F53_A;mso-bidi-font-family:\5B8B\4F53_A; mso-font-kerning:0pt;mso-ansi-language:EN-GB'><o:p> </o:p></span></p> <p class=3DMsoNormal align=3Dleft style=3D'text-align:left;text-indent:21.0= pt; mso-pagination:widow-orphan;text-autospace:none'><span style=3D'font-size:1= 2.0pt; font-family:\5B8B\4F53_A;mso-hansi-font-family:\5B8B\4F53_A;mso-bidi-font-f= amily: \5B8B\4F53_A;mso-font-kerning:0pt;mso-ansi-language:EN-GB'>我觉= 得华文的世界,顶适= 1512;我。我一直希望能৴= 4;握英文,到现在仍希&= #26395;老来一身轻,能学= 909;英文,多开一扇心灵= ;窗口。我受的十二年&#= 20013;小学教育,根本没ć= 77;真正学英文。英文学= 不好,自己不紧张,= 9238;母、老师也不紧张Ӎ= 0;英文差,竟还能年年&= #21517;列前三甲,一般学= 983;的英文程度便不言而= ;喻了。上英文课的时&#= 20505;,好比动物园的动Ĥ= 89;失去自由,只能在有= 限的空间内,像养肥= 0340;猪老睡觉,像猴子ߎ= 1;停地荡秋千,像丧失&= #37326;性的狮子呆坐在那%= 324;,憋气,当然也有的= ;像水鸭,游来游去嘎&#= 22030;叫。多半的时候,Ň= 69;师也变成一头大笨象= ,重重地立在那儿,= 1482;管摆动长长的鼻子Ӎ= 0;一天,对动物园里的&= #21160;物来说,应该是一= 180;吧;对于学生,上一= ;节英文课,墙上时钟&#= 30340;分针绕<span lang=3DEN-GB>30</span>圈,上两节,ń= 69;<span lang=3DEN-GB>60</span>圈,绕一圈,ì= 01;像在大草场吃力地跑= 完四百米,气呼呼看= 0528;老师的表情,希望ߢ= 2;格外开恩,跑一圈就&= #22815;了。这是个奇特的= 945;育现象,说出来,并= ;没有侮辱当年在华校&#= 25945;英文的老师的意思z= 90;</span><span lang=3DEN-GB style=3D'font-size:12.0pt;mso-font-kerning:0pt;mso-ansi-langua= ge:EN-GB'><o:p></o:p></span></p> <p class=3DMsoNormal align=3Dleft style=3D'text-align:left;mso-pagination:w= idow-orphan; text-autospace:none'><span lang=3DEN-GB style=3D'font-size:12.0pt;font-fami= ly:\5B8B\4F53_A; mso-hansi-font-family:\5B8B\4F53_A;mso-bidi-font-family:\5B8B\4F53_A; mso-font-kerning:0pt;mso-ansi-language:EN-GB'><o:p> </o:p></span></p> <p class=3DMsoNormal align=3Dleft style=3D'text-align:left;text-indent:21.0= pt; mso-pagination:widow-orphan;text-autospace:none'><span style=3D'font-size:1= 2.0pt; font-family:\5B8B\4F53_A;mso-hansi-font-family:\5B8B\4F53_A;mso-bidi-font-f= amily: \5B8B\4F53_A;mso-font-kerning:0pt;mso-ansi-language:EN-GB'>反观= 现在,学生学母语,= 0456;当于当年我们学英ਧ= 1;。不过,两者又不可&= #30456;提并论。现在教华= 991;的老师,好比马戏团= ;里的驯兽师,有耐性&#= 65292;摸清动物的习性,Ë= 51;出各种法宝来驯它,= 让它学得一两门本领= 5292;好上台“作秀”。驯= 兽师面对更大困难,= 2240;为动物们问:“你训= ;练一只狮子会跳火圈&#= 23601;够了,谁说我要上Ë= 20;的舞台去作秀?”其&= #20013;凶猛的喊话:“你Ű= 25;是违反我的意愿,是= 虐待,我可以提出投= 5785;。”杂音此起彼落,= ;竟形成一种声势,驯&#= 20861;师暗自欷歔。我实ß= 12;没有要嘲讽学生的意= 思。我不过描述一副= 6223;观呆板的拼图,学ஶ= 3;只是其中一块颜色而&= #24050;。</span><span lang=3DEN-GB style=3D'font-size:12.0pt;mso-font-kerning:0pt;mso-ansi-langua= ge:EN-GB'><o:p></o:p></span></p> <p class=3DMsoNormal align=3Dleft style=3D'text-align:left;mso-pagination:w= idow-orphan; text-autospace:none'><span lang=3DEN-GB style=3D'font-size:12.0pt;font-fami= ly:\5B8B\4F53_A; mso-hansi-font-family:\5B8B\4F53_A;mso-bidi-font-family:\5B8B\4F53_A; mso-font-kerning:0pt;mso-ansi-language:EN-GB'><o:p> </o:p></span></p> <p class=3DMsoNormal align=3Dleft style=3D'text-align:left;text-indent:21.0= pt; mso-pagination:widow-orphan;text-autospace:none'><span style=3D'font-size:1= 2.0pt; font-family:\5B8B\4F53_A;mso-hansi-font-family:\5B8B\4F53_A;mso-bidi-font-f= amily: \5B8B\4F53_A;mso-font-kerning:0pt;mso-ansi-language:EN-GB'>老师= ,怎么叫拼图活过来= 5292;山是山,水是水?༓= 0;。技穷吗?不!接着&= #35841;都来指指点点说三$= 947;四,老师不难过?他= ;们的肩膀,一边负起&#= 24310;续传统文化的重任ʌ= 92;一边得减轻学生学习= 华文的负担,难免踉= 6361;跄跄,不知情者误ߣ= 7;为是遇到失魂落魄的&= #37257;汉。</span><span lang=3DEN-GB style=3D'font-size:12.0pt;mso-font-kerning:0pt;mso-ansi-langua= ge:EN-GB'><o:p></o:p></span></p> <p class=3DMsoNormal align=3Dleft style=3D'text-align:left;mso-pagination:w= idow-orphan; text-autospace:none'><span lang=3DEN-GB style=3D'font-size:12.0pt;mso-font-= kerning: 0pt;mso-ansi-language:EN-GB'><o:p> </o:p></span></p> <p class=3DMsoNormal align=3Dleft style=3D'text-align:left;mso-pagination:w= idow-orphan; text-autospace:none'><span style=3D'font-size:12.0pt;font-family:\5B8B\4F53= _A; mso-hansi-font-family:\5B8B\4F53_A;mso-bidi-font-family:\5B8B\4F53_A; mso-font-kerning:0pt;mso-ansi-language:EN-GB'>7</span><span lang=3DE= N-GB style=3D'font-size:12.0pt;mso-font-kerning:0pt;mso-ansi-language:EN-GB'><o:= p></o:p></span></p> <p class=3DMsoNormal align=3Dleft style=3D'text-align:left;mso-pagination:w= idow-orphan; text-autospace:none'><span lang=3DEN-GB style=3D'font-size:12.0pt;font-fami= ly:\5B8B\4F53_A; mso-hansi-font-family:\5B8B\4F53_A;mso-bidi-font-family:\5B8B\4F53_A; mso-font-kerning:0pt;mso-ansi-language:EN-GB'><o:p> </o:p></span></p> <p class=3DMsoNormal align=3Dleft style=3D'text-align:left;text-indent:21.0= pt; mso-pagination:widow-orphan;text-autospace:none'><span style=3D'font-size:1= 2.0pt; font-family:\5B8B\4F53_A;mso-hansi-font-family:\5B8B\4F53_A;mso-bidi-font-f= amily: \5B8B\4F53_A;mso-font-kerning:0pt;mso-ansi-language:EN-GB'>人,= 到底是社会一分子。= 1038;会是幅尚未完工的࣪= 3;图景,每个人都要上&= #21069;去占个位子,抓起= 508;勾勒自己的景观。有= ;志之士对家国的憧憬&#= 22312;笔墨剥落后情不自ķ= 05;地流露出来了。可是= ,华文圈子里能争到= 0340;位子少,有人坐上࡟= 5;,其他人只好坐冷板&= #20979;。位子少,稍有移= 160;,便成为大家视野的= ;焦点,坐上去的人也&#= 35201;被迫听一半好话,Ç= 68;半坏话。坐不惯冷板= 凳的人呢,有火!不= 1649;是热情如火,还是ছ= 4;火狂烧,久了,也就&= #29060;灭,变成一摊死灰A= 307;这样说恐也不很准确= ;,应该说,有热情的&#= 20154;,懂得对谁才付出ġ= 09;情。</span><span lang=3DEN-GB style=3D'font-size:12.0pt;mso-font-kerning:0pt;mso-ansi-langua= ge:EN-GB'><o:p></o:p></span></p> <p class=3DMsoNormal align=3Dleft style=3D'text-align:left;mso-pagination:w= idow-orphan; text-autospace:none'><span lang=3DEN-GB style=3D'font-size:12.0pt;font-fami= ly:\5B8B\4F53_A; mso-hansi-font-family:\5B8B\4F53_A;mso-bidi-font-family:\5B8B\4F53_A; mso-font-kerning:0pt;mso-ansi-language:EN-GB'><o:p> </o:p></span></p> <p class=3DMsoNormal align=3Dleft style=3D'text-align:left;text-indent:21.0= pt; mso-pagination:widow-orphan;text-autospace:none'><span style=3D'font-size:1= 2.0pt; font-family:\5B8B\4F53_A;mso-hansi-font-family:\5B8B\4F53_A;mso-bidi-font-f= amily: \5B8B\4F53_A;mso-font-kerning:0pt;mso-ansi-language:EN-GB'>幸好= 追求人生的境界不只= 9968;个阶梯,圈子里的ߟ= 4;也就八仙过海了,不&= #29992;都被挤进某个偏僻#= 282;落互相瞪眼。我是读= ;书人,读的是最冷的&#= 25991;学,后悔吗。没有z= 90;一级一级上去,心反= 而踏实了,足下五分= 7668;力,五分喜悦,蹬࠲= 6;结结实实的希望来。&= #25105;觉得,我生下来就= 159;要蹬这阶梯的,尽管= ;这阶梯愈蹬愈高。</span><sp= an lang=3DEN-GB style=3D'font-size:12.0pt;mso-font-kerning:0pt;mso-ansi-langua= ge:EN-GB'><o:p></o:p></span></p> <p class=3DMsoNormal align=3Dleft style=3D'text-align:left;mso-pagination:w= idow-orphan; text-autospace:none'><span lang=3DEN-GB style=3D'font-size:12.0pt;mso-font-= kerning: 0pt;mso-ansi-language:EN-GB'><o:p> </o:p></span></p> <p class=3DMsoNormal align=3Dleft style=3D'text-align:left;mso-pagination:w= idow-orphan; text-autospace:none'><span style=3D'font-size:12.0pt;font-family:\5B8B\4F53= _A; mso-hansi-font-family:\5B8B\4F53_A;mso-bidi-font-family:\5B8B\4F53_A; mso-font-kerning:0pt;mso-ansi-language:EN-GB'>8</span><span lang=3DE= N-GB style=3D'font-size:12.0pt;mso-font-kerning:0pt;mso-ansi-language:EN-GB'><o:= p></o:p></span></p> <p class=3DMsoNormal align=3Dleft style=3D'text-align:left;mso-pagination:w= idow-orphan; text-autospace:none'><span lang=3DEN-GB style=3D'font-size:12.0pt;font-fami= ly:\5B8B\4F53_A; mso-hansi-font-family:\5B8B\4F53_A;mso-bidi-font-family:\5B8B\4F53_A; mso-font-kerning:0pt;mso-ansi-language:EN-GB'><o:p> </o:p></span></p> <p class=3DMsoNormal align=3Dleft style=3D'text-align:left;text-indent:21.0= pt; mso-pagination:widow-orphan;text-autospace:none'><span style=3D'font-size:1= 2.0pt; font-family:\5B8B\4F53_A;mso-hansi-font-family:\5B8B\4F53_A;mso-bidi-font-f= amily: \5B8B\4F53_A;mso-font-kerning:0pt;mso-ansi-language:EN-GB'>我在= 岛国的大街小巷走,= 4448;往,像出国旅游,ৎ= 5;是个陌生人,心情有&= #38590;以言说的复杂。有= 154;说,这是华校生情意= ;结,有酸气。我把这&#= 20010;所谓的“结”,解开= ;来,有颇肤浅的情绪&#= 65292;也有很扎实、很丰ë= 00;的感情。</span><span lang=3DEN-GB style=3D'font-size:12.0pt;mso-font-kerning:0pt;mso-ansi-langua= ge:EN-GB'><o:p></o:p></span></p> <p class=3DMsoNormal align=3Dleft style=3D'text-align:left;mso-pagination:wi= dow-orphan; text-autospace:none'><span lang=3DEN-GB style=3D'font-size:12.0pt;font-fami= ly:\5B8B\4F53_A; mso-hansi-font-family:\5B8B\4F53_A;mso-bidi-font-family:\5B8B\4F53_A; mso-font-kerning:0pt;mso-ansi-language:EN-GB'><o:p> </o:p></span></p> <p class=3DMsoNormal align=3Dleft style=3D'text-align:left;text-indent:21.0= pt; mso-pagination:widow-orphan;text-autospace:none'><span style=3D'font-size:1= 2.0pt; font-family:\5B8B\4F53_A;mso-hansi-font-family:\5B8B\4F53_A;mso-bidi-font-f= amily: \5B8B\4F53_A;mso-font-kerning:0pt;mso-ansi-language:EN-GB'>为什= 么要受质疑呀?我们= 1078;心剖腹,向谁说能෾= 8;得清楚?</span><span lang=3DEN-GB style=3D'font-size:12.0pt;mso-font-kerning:0pt;mso-ansi-langua= ge:EN-GB'><o:p></o:p></span></p> <p class=3DMsoNormal align=3Dleft style=3D'text-align:left;mso-pagination:w= idow-orphan; text-autospace:none'><span lang=3DEN-GB style=3D'font-size:12.0pt;font-fami= ly:\5B8B\4F53_A; mso-hansi-font-family:\5B8B\4F53_A;mso-bidi-font-family:\5B8B\4F53_A; mso-font-kerning:0pt;mso-ansi-language:EN-GB'><o:p> </o:p></span></p> <p class=3DMsoNormal align=3Dleft style=3D'text-align:left;text-indent:21.0= pt; mso-pagination:widow-orphan;text-autospace:none'><span style=3D'font-size:1= 2.0pt; font-family:\5B8B\4F53_A;mso-hansi-font-family:\5B8B\4F53_A;mso-bidi-font-f= amily: \5B8B\4F53_A;mso-font-kerning:0pt;mso-ansi-language:EN-GB'>我的= 结――如果是结的话ʌ= 92;是用来绑紧我的阶梯= ,让我一级一级上去= 0340;;有了这个结,我਷= 9;我;我每打个结,领&= #20250;到的是政治、经济 = 289;教育、科技、道德、= ;工作以外的真正的人&#= 29983;,深层的生命。</span><span lang=3DEN-GB style=3D'font-size:12.0pt;mso-font-kerning:0pt;mso-ansi-langua= ge:EN-GB'><o:p></o:p></span></p> <p class=3DMsoNormal align=3Dleft style=3D'text-align:left;mso-pagination:w= idow-orphan; text-autospace:none'><span lang=3DEN-GB style=3D'font-size:12.0pt;font-fami= ly:\5B8B\4F53_A; mso-hansi-font-family:\5B8B\4F53_A;mso-bidi-font-family:\5B8B\4F53_A; mso-font-kerning:0pt;mso-ansi-language:EN-GB'><o:p> </o:p></span></p> <p class=3DMsoNormal align=3Dleft style=3D'text-align:left;text-indent:21.0= pt; mso-pagination:widow-orphan;text-autospace:none'><span style=3D'font-size:1= 2.0pt; font-family:\5B8B\4F53_A;mso-hansi-font-family:\5B8B\4F53_A;mso-bidi-font-f= amily: \5B8B\4F53_A;mso-font-kerning:0pt;mso-ansi-language:EN-GB'>这样= 的“结”,我只能用Õ= 26;文打,倘若要抛弃,= 我干脆连自己也抛弃= 0102;吧。</span><span lang=3DEN-GB style=3D'font-size:12.0pt;mso-font-kerning:0pt;mso-ansi-langua= ge:EN-GB'><o:p></o:p></span></p> <p class=3DMsoNormal align=3Dleft style=3D'text-align:left;mso-pagination:w= idow-orphan; text-autospace:none'><span lang=3DEN-GB style=3D'font-size:12.0pt;mso-font-= kerning: 0pt;mso-ansi-language:EN-GB'><o:p> </o:p></span></p> <p class=3DMsoNormal align=3Dleft style=3D'text-align:left;mso-pagination:w= idow-orphan; text-autospace:none'><span style=3D'font-size:12.0pt;font-family:\5B8B\4F53= _A; mso-hansi-font-family:\5B8B\4F53_A;mso-bidi-font-family:\5B8B\4F53_A; mso-font-kerning:0pt;mso-ansi-language:EN-GB'>9</span><span lang=3DE= N-GB style=3D'font-size:12.0pt;mso-font-kerning:0pt;mso-ansi-language:EN-GB'><o:= p></o:p></span></p> <p class=3DMsoNormal align=3Dleft style=3D'text-align:left;mso-pagination:w= idow-orphan; text-autospace:none'><span lang=3DEN-GB style=3D'font-size:12.0pt;font-fami= ly:\5B8B\4F53_A; mso-hansi-font-family:\5B8B\4F53_A;mso-bidi-font-family:\5B8B\4F53_A; mso-font-kerning:0pt;mso-ansi-language:EN-GB'><o:p> </o:p></span></p> <p class=3DMsoNormal align=3Dleft style=3D'text-align:left;text-indent:21.0= pt; mso-pagination:widow-orphan;text-autospace:none'><span style=3D'font-size:1= 2.0pt; font-family:\5B8B\4F53_A;mso-hansi-font-family:\5B8B\4F53_A;mso-bidi-font-f= amily: \5B8B\4F53_A;mso-font-kerning:0pt;mso-ansi-language:EN-GB'>我们= 是边缘人,国家大小= 0107;只要站在边上看热໿= 3;,照相的时候照到半&= #20010;侧面,就算普天同= 198;了。后来,觉得无趣= ;的,再不管庙堂有多&#= 39640;,只顾悠游于江湖ć= 77;多远了;各顾各,各= 筑小天地。这是自我= 5918;逐吗。放逐就放逐ࡪ= 3;,即使你是屈原,人&= #23478;也不知道屈原是个= 861;。</span><span lang=3DEN-GB style=3D'font-size:12.0pt;mso-font-kerning:0pt;mso-ansi-langua= ge:EN-GB'><o:p></o:p></span></p> <p class=3DMsoNormal align=3Dleft style=3D'text-align:left;mso-pagination:w= idow-orphan; text-autospace:none'><span lang=3DEN-GB style=3D'font-size:12.0pt;font-fami= ly:\5B8B\4F53_A; mso-hansi-font-family:\5B8B\4F53_A;mso-bidi-font-family:\5B8B\4F53_A; mso-font-kerning:0pt;mso-ansi-language:EN-GB'><o:p> </o:p></span></p> <p class=3DMsoNormal align=3Dleft style=3D'text-align:left;text-indent:21.0= pt; mso-pagination:widow-orphan;text-autospace:none'><span style=3D'font-size:1= 2.0pt; font-family:\5B8B\4F53_A;mso-hansi-font-family:\5B8B\4F53_A;mso-bidi-font-f= amily: \5B8B\4F53_A;mso-font-kerning:0pt;mso-ansi-language:EN-GB'>现在= 你明白我一再迟疑,= 7809;有补上眼神的原因ߚ= 2;吧。</span><span lang=3DEN-GB style=3D'font-size:12.0pt;mso-font-kerning:0pt;mso-ansi-langua= ge:EN-GB'><o:p></o:p></span></p> <p class=3DMsoNormal align=3Dleft style=3D'text-align:left;mso-pagination:w= idow-orphan; text-autospace:none'><span lang=3DEN-GB style=3D'font-size:12.0pt;mso-font-= kerning: 0pt;mso-ansi-language:EN-GB'><o:p> </o:p></span></p> <p class=3DMsoNormal align=3Dleft style=3D'text-align:left;mso-pagination:w= idow-orphan; text-autospace:none'><span style=3D'font-size:12.0pt;font-family:\5B8B\4F53= _A; mso-hansi-font-family:\5B8B\4F53_A;mso-bidi-font-family:\5B8B\4F53_A; mso-font-kerning:0pt;mso-ansi-language:EN-GB'>10</span><span lang=3DEN-GB style=3D'font-size:12.0pt;mso-font-kerning:0pt;mso-ansi-langua= ge:EN-GB'><o:p></o:p></span></p> <p class=3DMsoNormal align=3Dleft style=3D'text-align:left;mso-pagination:w= idow-orphan; text-autospace:none'><span lang=3DEN-GB style=3D'font-size:12.0pt;font-fami= ly:\5B8B\4F53_A; mso-hansi-font-family:\5B8B\4F53_A;mso-bidi-font-family:\5B8B\4F53_A; mso-font-kerning:0pt;mso-ansi-language:EN-GB'><o:p> </o:p></span></p> <p class=3DMsoNormal align=3Dleft style=3D'text-align:left;text-indent:21.0= pt; mso-pagination:widow-orphan;text-autospace:none'><span style=3D'font-size:1= 2.0pt; font-family:\5B8B\4F53_A;mso-hansi-font-family:\5B8B\4F53_A;mso-bidi-font-f= amily: \5B8B\4F53_A;mso-font-kerning:0pt;mso-ansi-language:EN-GB'>我们= 的圈子越来越小,所= 0851;心的“圈子”却没有= 缩小,只是认同这个= 220;圈子”的人少了,终= 有一天,这个“圈子R= 21;不再是个圈子。</span><span lang=3DEN-GB style=3D'font-size:12.0pt;mso-font-kerning:0pt;mso-ansi-langua= ge:EN-GB'><o:p></o:p></span></p> <p class=3DMsoNormal align=3Dleft style=3D'text-align:left;mso-pagination:w= idow-orphan; text-autospace:none'><span lang=3DEN-GB style=3D'font-size:12.0pt;font-fami= ly:\5B8B\4F53_A; mso-hansi-font-family:\5B8B\4F53_A;mso-bidi-font-family:\5B8B\4F53_A; mso-font-kerning:0pt;mso-ansi-language:EN-GB'><o:p> </o:p></span></p> <p class=3DMsoNormal align=3Dleft style=3D'text-align:left;text-indent:21.0= pt; mso-pagination:widow-orphan;text-autospace:none'><span style=3D'font-size:1= 2.0pt; font-family:\5B8B\4F53_A;mso-hansi-font-family:\5B8B\4F53_A;mso-bidi-font-f= amily: \5B8B\4F53_A;mso-font-kerning:0pt;mso-ansi-language:EN-GB'>忽有= 一番滋味涌上心头,= 6159;寂寞吗?咀嚼起来ᦁ= 2;味道仿佛吾师林文月&= #20808;生的著作《饮膳扎#= 760;》里那道盛于素白瓷= ;盘、色香味俱全的清&#= 28818;虾仁。我曾试着学Í= 70;了两次,满怀欢喜。= </span><span lang=3DEN-GB style=3D'font-size:12.0pt;mso-font-kerning:0pt;mso-ansi-langua= ge:EN-GB'><o:p></o:p></span></p> <p class=3DMsoNormal><span lang=3DEN-US><o:p> </o:p></span></p> </div> </body> </html>